Release (feat. Veela)

Why won't I release me?
Why won't I release me?
I'm stuck on the side of the boat I rode
Have I gotten too far while still afloat?
Should have been more careful with the boat I chose
Got chills from the water I'm wading
Lazy or recovering?
Total apathy I need time to think
It's a miracle I still got strength to be
Fighting a line so gray
Fighting a line so gray
Fighting a line so gray
Fighting a line so gray
Fighting a line so gray
Fighting a line so gray
'Cause I'm a mess
Get that out of my head
I know I could progress
Could never get ahead
I never wanted this
I don't even recognize myself
Steel my thoughts
And I'm stressed
Feelin' the world of pressure
I know I started this
Second guessed the effort
To continue it
Or be this way forever
So, steel my thoughts
Teleport me to year seventeen
I had such control and clarity
Set the standard high, its embarrassing
How I lost it, trying
So hard to over achieve
And gave no credit to my suffering
Poor body needed reprogramming
Hold my rib cage, breathing
Hold my rib cage, check my breathing
Hold my rib cage, check my breathing
Why won't I release me
It's getting rough
Peace of my mind, far from simple
And I release me
It's getting rough
Peace of my mind, far from simple
Far from simple
Release me
Release me