happiness

破損的夾克上有污漬

他是大家都快樂中不快樂的孩子
Ripped jacket with the stains on the surface
獨自坐著，對每一個路過的人都視而不見
He was the kid that everyone was happy they werent
想著如果有一個目標會是什麼感覺
Sitting alone invisible to every passing person
他從未有過童年
Wondering what it would feel like to have a purpose
被迫撫養自己的父母，任何孩子都不應該遇到
He never had a childhood
他的父親是一個老兵，醉酒淹沒了他的記憶
Forced to parent his own parents like no child should
他的母親吃了醫生給她的藥，這些藥只會讓她病情加重
His father is a veteran drowning his memories with liquor
沒有兄弟姐妹幫忙
And his mothers taking pills that doctors give her but they only make her sicker
沒有未來，沒有金錢，沒有朋友，沒有知己，不善言談
With no sibling to walk through this stuff
坐以待斃，不知所措
No ends, no money, no friends, no buddies, he aint talking enough
那麼，在他的生命中，會從誰那裡學到自信呢？
He dont put himself out there, hes awkward too much
上課時他坐在我後面
Well, who in his life would he learn confidence from?
有一天我聽到後面有人在哭泣
And he sits behind me in class
最後我轉過身來問
One day I heard crying from the back
發生了什麼事情
Finally I turned around and I asked
我第一次聽到他的聲音
What was wrong
他說
And the first time I heard his voice
'我只知道痛苦，如果這就是生活，那還有什麼意義？
He said
告訴我什麼是幸福...'
'All I know is pain, if this is life, whats the point?
他聲音低沉，望著我，他說
Show me what happiness is...'
告訴我幸福在哪裡
His voice gloomy he looked through me he said
絕望在他的臉上
Show me where happiness is
我不知道該說什麼
Desperateness on his face
我想不出來
I didnt know what to say
告訴我幸福在哪裡
I couldnt think
他低下頭
Show me where happiness is
他沒有發出聲音
He put his head down
告訴我幸福在哪裡
And he didnt make a sound
我呆住了
Show me where happiness is
好像我都不知道...
And I just froze
完美的妝容，甚至不需要額外的修飾
Like I dont even know...
她是讓其他女人都羨慕的女人
Perfect makeup even though she dont need the extra touch
柔順的頭髮，藍色的眼睛，苗條的身材
She was the girl that every other girl was jealous of
衣服遮住了她的身體曲線
Silky hair, blue eyes, thin body with
她幾乎被所有人視為女神
Curves, but her new clothes only cover parts of it
當她走過大廳時，吸引了所有人的目光
Shes almost looked at like a goddess to all
她也很可愛，也不是閒聊的人
Attracts every pair of eyes when she walks through the hall
當你和她說話時，她從來沒有炫耀
But shes likable too, shes not the one to gossip
充滿知識和新鮮感的富裕家庭
Evident when you talk to her, she aint ever pompous
她是學校排名前三中最年輕的學生
Wealthy home filled with knowledge and newness
她的父母非常自豪，驕傲圍繞著她
She was the youngest out of 3 book smart students
但我總覺得她有點不對勁
And her parents were so proud, pride was all around her
上課時她坐在我前面
But I always noticed something was a little off about her
有一天，當她遞回文件時，我注意到她手腕上的傷痕
She sits in front of me in class
下課後，我走到她跟前，問她這件事情
One day I noticed heavy make up on her wrist when she passed papers back
她說:'這並不意味著我在它們身邊就擁有它
After class, I approached her and I asked about it
告訴我幸福在哪裡...'
'She said it dont mean I have it if Im around it
我看著她的眼睛
Show me where happiness is'
我第一次見到她
I looked into her eyes
告訴我幸福在哪裡
I saw her for the first time
我看到了遺憾
Show me where happiness is
她馬上就走了
I saw regret
她的聲音在我的腦海響起
She walked away in a sec
告訴我幸福在哪裡
Her voice rang through my head
我看著她離開
Show me where happiness is
變成了另一張面孔
I watched her walk away
她說什麼？
She became another face
告訴我幸福在哪裡
What she say?
我呆住了
Show me where happiness is
好像我都不知道...
And I just froze
我不知道，我每天都問自己同樣的問題
Like I dont even know
但是每個答案都模糊不清
I dont know because I ask myself the same thing every single day
為什麼有些人欣賞雨後的陽光
But every single answer has been vague
其他人只是看到水坑，彷彿什麼都沒有改變？
How come some appreciate the sun after the rain
當我看到他們過著我們無法忍受的生活時，我想知道他們是否找到通向精神世界的道路
While others just see the puddles as if nothing has changed?
當我看到他們過著我們夢寐以求的生活時，我想知道他們的感受和看不見的東西
And as I watch people living the life I couldnt take, I wonder if they see a way out to mentally
當我看到我的家人都在吃藥治療抑鬱症時，我想知道真正的幸福到底是什麼意思
And as I watch people who live the life I idolize, I wonder what they feel and what isnt seen
我想知道，是不是我天生就有這種傾向，覺得這就是自己軟弱的原因
As I watch my whole family take pills for depression I wonder what true happiness really means
只是有時候，會思前想後
I wonder if because Im genetically predisposed to it, that is the reason I find myself feeling weak
當你沒有理由感到沮喪時，我想會更害怕
Only sometimes, in and out
有時候我就是這樣
I guess its scarier when you dont have a reason to be feeling down
有時候我覺得沒有人會理解
Sometimes I just am
有時候我想哭
Sometimes I just feel no one will ever understand
有時候我想粉碎在他們眼中所謂的藥物
Sometimes I wanna cry
告訴他們，只要我們彼此依靠，就不需要任何藥物
Sometimes I want to crush my familys so-called medication look in their eyes
有時候我只能看著他們備受折磨
And tell them they dont need it as long we just have each other
我只是想知道幸福在哪裡
But then sometimes I watch them suffer
告訴我幸福在哪裡
I just wonder where happiness is
Show me where happiness is