Pray for Me

Joe Budden - Pray For Me
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I woke up without a heart beat
But, I remember we was just in the car deep
Was at a light, and got approached by a car thief
He pulled out but didnt ask for no car keys
A loud noise without a voice but im tryna scream out...******t is not fair
I cant tell you where im at or how I got here
Surrounded by all white, maybe its just cloudy
Escorted by two men who knew everything about me
Both of em so strong, kept sayin hold on
Feel like my souls gone ...naked no clothes on
I know this cant be my fate, I scream wait
As they drop me in front of a gate
They left no trace...I can see my every breath
Like a cold day, stood in front a man with no face
He said to me 'please dont make this any harder'
Who the ****** is you? 'my child im your Father '
I only got one dad 'is that a fact to you?'
'He left you when you was young, I brought him back to you'
'Youre real close to heaven, few get to step in'
'Now tell me what youve done to deserve to be let in'
Look im far from a Christian, not big on religion
But aint done too much wrong my entire time livin
Never killed, never tried to...though I been lied to
Was once suicidal, never read the Bible
I always been a caretaker, tried to nurse people
At times it back fired...hurt people, hurt people
Plus I never used your name in vain
But you should know everything Im bein asked explained
'I know you stole from your motherspurse'
You cant count that, that was way back when
'Its still a sin' ...but I was ten
'You robbed peoples stores' Yeah, and YOU made me see jail
'But I also seen you lay your hands on a female'
'Sold drugs to parents, none of that was needed'
'Abandoned your child, on every girl you cheated'
'Done wrong to people that only want the best for you'
'Anytime you thought you were alone, I was next to you'
When it comes to baby moms...God you gave me the worst one
'But that was your second child Joe...you shouldnt have killed the first one'
I aint have a job...aint have a pot to piss in
'Look I gave you a gift, and you made the wrong decision'
'Held on to resen******ents, even in doin business'
'I lead by example, I teach forgiveness'
'Your entry...cannot be guaranteed'
'Not when you live with anger, envy, greed'
'Pride, sloth, lust even glutony'
'Everything you shouldnt if you wouldve joined my covenant'
Look im only human, I aint perfect 'That I understand'
'When I take you out a jam, you dont even think to wor******p'
'And when you do...you never talk about what. ..
'...You can do for me, its what I can do for you'
'I blessed you with health, family and wealth'
'But all the blessings youve received... you still always want help'
Yeah theres been times in my life I needed help to make money
But why everything I love, you manage to take from me
Yet you stand there and question a *** *** that tries hard
And finds a way when you keep dealin him ****** up cards
You make mistakes like me, far as I can see
I think its a mockery whenever rich ******s win the lottery
Gave us Bush twice, God I hate to be rude
But you let skinny ******s starve, give obese ******s food
The nerve of you tellin me I dont deserve to stay here
When you gave us drugs and guns, you put AIDs here
Take a look at chu, your actions are cold hearted
The harsh ******t is you bring babies in the world retarded
I know most my actions put me in a cell
Now how you mad at me when you put me in the Hell?
'See my child, you need gratitude, maybe just a sample '
'I never give a person anything he cant handle'
'Dont tell me bout everything you had to go through'
'Theres reasons for my actions even if I never showed you'
' Kept tryin wit chu, all you did was hurt me'
'Still gave you chances to prove that you was worthy'
'And so I sat wit chu on a train'
'I asked you for change , you kept callin me names'
'Prolly didnt notice, I was a store clerk'
'You put the gun to me, get money for more work'
'My child, I know you have it in you to indeed stop'
'This is not your final calling, just a brief stop'
'Hope you heed my words and understand'
'So when I see you back, you should be a better man'
'Look at life different, the next time we see each other'
'Therell be no need to talk, whenever we meet each other'