The Remorse

Yuh, yuh
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Look, me and little Sandra bagging CDs in a bubble wrap
看啊，我和小Sandra用泡泡紙打包了一堆碟（Sandra指鴨母親
People recognise me from the TV, but Im done with that
人們從電視上認出我來了，不過我真是受夠了這樣的生活
People dont wanna see me succeed, this shit come with that
人們都不想見我成名，不順心的事情接踵而至
Even when I comeback, I dont know if its gonna be me thats Coming back,
甚至當我東山再起，我都不敢確定是我真的回歸了嗎
soon as I left I had to make peace with that
我離開後不久，我不得不選擇與自己和解
Dropped out of school cause nobody was teaching that
從學校中途輟學，因為根本沒人教我如何做人
The Best Westerns where a nigga was sleeping at
哥就在貝斯特韋斯特酒店歇著呢
Daemen College booking me to pull up to speak the facts
德門學院預訂我檔期來說說真相
Even if they make a movie bout us
甚至他們為我拍了一部電影
This shit will be hard to re-enact
但這件糟心的事還是難以復盤
This okay to show that its hard to be always reaching back
我明白回溯過往之事很難
All these IOUs, its hard for me to be keeping track
所有這些欠條（I owe U)，也都難以回歸正軌
Friends that dedicated they life to just keepin me intact
朋友們為我兩肋插刀
Hard to pay 40, pay Noel, pay Niko back
對40（製作人）、Noel（音響師）、Niko的人情我難以還清
All the nights I needed to vent to someone to and CJ sat
許多個夜晚我都需要發洩憤怒
All the nights Chubbs was pulling up, where I need him at
許多夜晚Chubbs都在我需要的時候來到我身邊
All the times Mark was making sure that my luggage packed
許多夜晚Mark都幫我確認我的行李是否備好
At times he had to double back (Ooh)
有時他甚至會原路返回
I mean , even with his salary, you cant put no prices on that
我意思是，甚至憑他的薪水，你都不能為這份真心定價
There is nosalary cap, there is no payin him back
沒有工資上限，是我無以回報（淚目TT）
For real, I wonder what he coulda been if I had snakes in the makes
說真的，我好奇如果我弄虛作假他會怎麼樣
Actually, I never wanna know cause we made it like this
不過事實上，我從來不想知道，畢竟我們是如此成功
Shots gotta fly either way, now I make it or miss
無論哪樣，槍會飄也會走火，現在的我成敗不定
Overtime, I was all good, we take it in shifts
加時賽，我一切都好，戰局即將翻盤
What would you do if it wasnt this? Thats a hard one
倘若現實並非如此，你將會做什麼呢，難以抉擇吧
The finish line is where I like to pull up and start from
終點線是我停下和開始的目標
Pain is just a place that I go to get the bars from
痛苦只是促使我走向紙醉金迷之地
Anxietys a drug that I use to get the job done
焦慮也僅僅是我完成工作的動力
Delusionals a space I like to think Im far from
妄想這一空間我願與之保持距離
My son is the one thing I hate to be apart from
我的孩子是我掌心至寶，我不願分離
Bet against me, I dont know where they getting their odds from
與我打賭吧，我不知道他們的微弱信心從何而來
I know that when its done, Im going where ever Gods from
我知道一切終結後，我將升往上帝之境
But I still dont know where I get the calm from
但我依然不知道我的冷靜之源
(Where I get the calm from), Yeah, yuh
我的豁達來自哪裡
Look, gotta hold my head high with two dry eyes
瞧，我將高昂頭顱，雙眼不含一滴淚水
I told you everything is fine dog, but I lied
我告訴你一切都好，但我撒謊了
I be tryna draw the line, but its a fine line
我嘗試著畫一根線，但這界線不甚分明
And Im drownin out the noise from the sideline
並且我沉溺於邊線傳來的歡呼噪音
Sometimes its louder than the voice inside of my mind
有時它比我腦海中的聲音還要大
I cant even hear myself when I get quiet time
當一切寂靜我都不能遵從我自己的內心！
Like, how they tellin me Im done, when Im in my prime?
就好像是，他們怎麼評價我的作為，什麼時候我才能把自己放在首位？
Theyve been tryna push a narrative since 09
他們自從09年就一直在嘗試給我的生涯加以敘述及定位
And they even had my ass convinced a couple times
甚至都讓我自己相信了呢
But that aint even the half, I had tougher times
但那甚至一半都稱不上，我還經歷過更掙扎的時光
Only look for sympathy inside my mothers eyes
痛苦到其他都不重要，只想在我母親的眼裡尋求一絲同情惻隱
And its whatever with them niggas on the other side
和那些兄弟怎麼樣都無所謂了
We got problems we could never really put aside
我們有些問題，永遠無法逃避
I cracked the door, fore I saw her put my food inside
我將門撞裂，在我看見她將我的食物放進來之前
I tried to kill them boys with kindness, but they wouldnt die
我想用溫柔的手法將男孩們殺了，但我知道他們不會死掉
So now I kill em all for acting like they couldnt die (Yuh)
所以現在我殺他們只為演出他們不能死的效果
My hard work doesnt just pay off, it pays all the family debts off
我的付出，不僅僅是有回報，它甚至能將家庭的債務全清
Im taking heads off, Future out here like Irving Azoff
我已飄飄然，未來一片光明（就像Ivring Azoff）
Houses paid off, label paid off
房貸已清，公司不再負債
My soul for the money wasn't the trade-off
我的靈魂與錢財已不必讓我權衡
Unlike most of you boys that fade off
不像大部分兄弟已經隱退
I feel guilty taking some days off
我反而對我的短暫休假感到一絲羞愧
Please don't google my net worth , the numbers are way off
別去谷歌我的身價，這些數字和實際的差的太遠
I mean if you comparin' it to what I really made off with
我意思是你跟我真的賺到且早就轉移的作比較的話
I'm more like Bernie with all the earnest that they came off
我更像Bernie用忠心做來的一樣
Trust me it was nothin' light, holmes
相信我沒有什麼能夠見光的，福爾摩斯
They tried to give me a slice of the pie, and I took the knife home
他們想給我一小片派，但是我把刀都帶回家了哈哈
I know you love me
我也知道你是愛我的
Can't picture bein' a hubby, finger too stubby to fit a ring on
不能想像我做丈夫能否擔當責任，手指太短粗都帶不上戒指啦^^
Unless Kawhi wanna run it back
除非是倫納德想跑回去那麼簡單
Other than that, the strings'll be unattached
除此之外，我可能就不會戀愛了
Certified Lover Boy, I'm not the one for cuddling or none of that
經過認證純純的戀愛教父，我不是那個渴望依偎或者其他愛意的人
Y'all music is watered down, will you love 'em back?
我的歌如水般潺潺，你會再愛一次嗎
And you know what I'm on blowing past ya, owning masters
而且你知道的，我在嘗試忘記過去，掌控自我
Said you're like a father figure to me, but now daddy's not around so I'm a bastard
說對我來說你如父親般存在，但是不在我身邊時我就像個混蛋
Oh of course, the only villain that show remorse when I owe you more
oh當然了，唯一的反派角色會在人情賬下流露悔恨
Soft spot for all the ones that came before, I can't ignore it
每個人之前都有弱點，我無法忽視
I'm always tryna rekindle
我總是想要重燃生活
From the bottom the to the top, man, what's it like in the middle?
從底層做到塔頂，朋友，夾在中間的處境是什麼滋味呢
From the lemon faced radio host that love to be bitter
從未經世事的電台主持人到總想領略生活痛苦
To my dogs in the game who wasn't pick of the litter
給我資質平平還沒有貴人的兄弟一點借鑒（紀錄片《崽之抉擇》）
For the young Gs out here starting from the beginning
送給那些從底層做起的遊戲銷售(?)
Nobody praying for you when you winning, don't forget it (Winning, don't forget it)
當你勝利，沒有人會為你祈禱，別忘了大家都立足於弱者一方
Woah, woah, woah-woah
噢，悔意襲來
Woah, woah
噢，我選擇忘卻
Woah, woah, woah
噢，我還是我
Woah, ah
噢，遵從內心
Said it's hard when it starts to fade away
早已說過，當一切開始消逝，事情變得困難
Said it's hard when it starts to fade away
當你選擇遺忘，卻發現萬分不捨
Yeah (Ooh, yeah)
啊
Said it's hard when it starts to fade away
悔恨不只是輕易之詞
Hard when it starts to fade away
艱難困苦只因為我驕傲卻自責
It's hard when the memories start to fade away
記憶消逝的時候，彷彿也在啃噬我心
Said its hard when the memories start to fade away
遺忘之難，悔恨之苦，我已領略
(Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah) (Ooh) So beautiful
但是，美麗至極。