So Many Tears

'So Many Tears'
I shall not fear no man but God
Though I walk through the valley of death
I shed so many tears (if I should die before I wake)
Please God walk with me (grab a nigga and take me to Heaven)
Back in elementary, I thrived on misery
Left me alone I grew up amongst a dyin breed
Inside my mind couldnt find a place to rest
until I got that Thug Life tatted on my chest
Tell me can you feel me? Im not livin in the past, you wanna last
Be tha first to blast, remember Kato
No longer with us hes deceased
Call on the sirens, seen him murdered in the streets
Now rest in peace
Is there heaven for a G? Remember me
So many homies in the cemetery, shed so many tears
Ahh, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears..
Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
Now that Im strugglin in this business, by any means
Label me greedy gettin green, but seldom seen
And fuck the world cause Im cursed, Im havin visions
of leavin here in a hearse, God can you feel me?
Take me away from all the pressure, and all the pain
Show me some happiness again, Im goin blind
I spend my time in this cell, aint livin well
I know my destiny is Hell, where did I fail?
My life is in denial, and when I die,
baptized in eternal fire Ill shed so many tears
Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears..
Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
Now Im lost and Im weary, so many tears
Im suicidal, so dont stand near me
My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer
to embrace an early death, now theres nothin left
There was no mercy on the streets, I couldnt rest
Im barely standin, bout to go to pieces, screamin peace
And though my soul was deleted, I couldnt see it
I had my mind full of demons tryin to break free
They planted seeds and they hatched, sparkin the flame
inside my brain like a match, such a dirty game
No memories, just a misery
Paintin a picture of my enemies killin me, in my sleep
Will I survive til the monin, to see the sun
Please Lord forgive me for my sins, cause here I come...
Lord, I suffered through the years (God) and shed so many tears..
God, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
Lord knows I.. tried, been a witness to homicide
Seen drivebys takin lives, little kids die
Wonder why as I walk by
Broken-hearted as I glance at the chalk line, gettin high
This aint the life for me, I wanna change
But aint no future right for me, Im stuck in the game
Im trapped inside a maze
See this Tanqueray influenced me to gettin crazy
Disillusioned lately, Ive been really wantin babies
so I could see a part of me that wasnt always shady
Dont trust my lady, cause shes a product of this poison
Im hearin noises, think she fuckin all my boys, cant take no more
Im fallin to the floor beggin for the Lord to let me in
to Heavens door -- shed so many tears
(Dear God , please let me in)
Lord, Ive lost so many years, and shed so many tears..
I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears..
God, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
..........by OG..........