Lay Your Head Down

Lay your head down
Lay your head down
Lay your head down on me
What is the state
of your heart
Is it concave
Are you awake
Sometimes when I cry
I start to cry harder simply
because I am crying
Or because I know that in the world
Somewhere there are little girls
that are wearing tutus And singing
Christmas songs
Or because there are actual
Shar Pei puppies
that look like rolled up towels
Or because on the internet
you can find pictures of pigs
in rain boots
You can find anything on the internet
That is so cool
Or I cry because
Sarah McLaughlin comes onto my TV
And sings to animals
that dont have homes
F** k you Sarah McLaughlin
Just kidding
I love you Sarah McLaughlin
Sometimes I cry when cheese is really good
Or when Ive cut onions
Thats just human
I cry when there is no end
and I cry because there is an end
And I cry because you love me so well
And I cry because
I gave my love to other people
before you
And I cry because I used to cry alone
because I wanted to die
I cry because the sunset
is so beautiful on the Connecticut river
I cry because I am scared
I am losing my mind
I cry because Im on meds or
because I forgot my meds or
Im crying for the fact
Im crying
because I forgot my meds
and does this mean actually myself
And I am crying because maybe
I am myself
And that doesnt feel like enough
Lay your head down
Lay your head down
Lay your head down on me
What is thestate
of your heart
Is it concave
Are you awake
I cry because sometimes
my only power
feels like tweeting a hashtag
and that is so vapid and useless
Or I cry because I am human
and im connected
and there is immense sadness
in the world
I cry because humanity is frightening
because one person cosumed
with self hatred
and armed with one gun can kill
an entire room of people
I cry because shame propells
so many of us
I cry because so many people forget
how important it is to cry
or made to feel weak when they do
I cry because I want to close my eyes
I cry because I cant
And I cry because there is also good
Theres also chocolate cake and love
and Harry Potter
And the brilliant gasps of magic of
holding a hand
And hammocks
I love hammocks
I cry because it is late in the Summer
and all the fireflies are winking
at me and the moon is out
and it wants nothing from me
I cry because my heart used to be
an atlas with all the continents cut out
I cry because I am full now and sure
and say yes when I mean yes
and no when I mean no
and can love you with all of my breath
I cry because I am so well
Because I live so well
And how could one person
possibly be so fortunate
to live with all of this light
Lay your head down
Lay your head down
Lay your head down on me
Lay your head down
Lay your head down
Lay your head down on me
What is the state
of your heart
Is it concave
Are you awake
Stay awake
Stay awake
Stay awake