Goodbye

I remember it like it just happened
I couldve sworn it was a dream
But in reality it hit me like a nightmare
Or at least thats how it seemed
I just got a grip on our relationship
We was ironing things out, started picking up steam
And when we didnt need it is when it all got heated
And we both said some things that we probably didnt mean
Then God intervened, guess more was at stake
Thought we left nothing over,
He put more on the plate
She came home from the doctor with news
Ive been wanting
Says family was incoming, shes pregnant, twins coming
But thats gotta be a lie
She sighed, couldnt stop the tears coming from her eyes
That birth control she on, for them its suicide
As long as its still inside, two of them wouldnt survive
Hard turn from memorable to cynical
Picturing clothes for what wouldve been identical
Similar outfits, similar names
My deceased kids ultrasound in a frame
So Im deprived of my chance to be a better dad
Staring at my twins that
I never had
I shed a tear, looking up in the sky
Even though yall just got here, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
But its not the end of the chapter
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
Ill see you again in the afterlife
My biological sperm donor, didnt wanna be a daddy
So he hopped in his
Caddy and turned corners on us
Turned on us out the clear blue
His last memory of his son is seeing me through his rearview
I still love him yo, but
I love his brother more
My uncle showed me love no one could know
Young and poor with a tougher road
To suffer hunger was nothing but
Unc would hold
Us down, help moms lift the motherload
I got grown and
I used to wonder what it would be like to speak to pops as a grown man
He provided that feeling, told me to take my career into my own hands
He was there when
I had no fans
My cellphone rings, and after
I answerA voice says 'Your uncles been diagnosed with cancer'
Worst news in my life
Him and chemo going 12 rounds with a disease and they both losing the fight
Im rushing up to
Cedars-Sinai
Praying for a miracle,
I dont wanna see my idol die
Before he did, the look in his eyes
Said 'Even though you just got here, goodbye'
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
But its not the end of the chapter
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
Ill see you again in the afterlife
Ill see you again in the afterlife
Someday in heaven we will reunite
The flesh disappears but the soul survives
Till next time, my friend, farewell, goodbye
I walked in your daughters house, knowing that you gone
But still looking out the corner of my eye, hoping you on the couch
That call felt like
I was beef that had got shot up
Ironic, I was on tour with
Tech N9ne and
Slaughterhouse
D tried to talk to me,
Crystal rubbed my back, as they was pouring out
I caught the next thing soaring out
Now Im in the air, in the midwest somewhere
They said turbulence was severe,
I dont know what they talking bout
I aint feel a bump, body numb, mind drifting
Im sniffling, asthma acting up,
Im whistling
Im wishing my mothers face looked so much different
Im kissing my son, my aunt pacing in the kitchen
My vision blurry, still
I saw your face clear
What a loss, this time
I did more than waste beer
Michelles strong, she held on, we got all the way there
Then we walked in, she fell on the floor, this aint fair
You was the voice when
I considered them thoughts that aint clear
Hey granny,
I was fifth row at the
GrammysAn award they aint hand me, but
I sat behind
WillAnd right in front of
Wayne, and got seen by the family
I miss the early morning convos, believe me
Regis on the
TV, and the best baked ziti
But you had an all white affair, grandpas all fly
Even though you been got there, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
But its not the end of the chapter
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
Ill see you again in the afterlife