Godlight

Theres no way out of an angry crowd without stepping on some toes
Theyll scream your name till the lights go out then they feed you to the wolves
Its hard to say who youll be when they let those big red curtains close
You know this
Cause you told me so

I bet you forgot

Black heels in the summertime
Dads bad cooking though youd be polite
Honey now you got a look that I cant recognize
Pulled me aside
And you said

To know me
Is to hate me
Is to hate what Ive become

Its to watch me
As Im falling
From that ladders last rung

Its to feel it
Like a secret
You cant keep in
Im not the way I was
Im not the way I was

Were you freed within, did you leave your skin?
Are you tethered in your doubt?
Have you breathed it in till its medicine that you cannot live without?
Cause you came back home a ****in alien and were stuck here on the ground
Call mom back kid before the high comes down

Cause you forgot

Black heels in the summertime
Dirt road smoking on a Friday night
Now you got a look that I dont recognize
You pulled me aside and you said

To know me
Is to hate me
Is to hate what Ive become

Its to watch me
As Im falling
From that ladders last rung

Its to feel it
Like a secret
You cant keep in
Im not the way I was
Im not the way I was

But to feel it
To see it
The look in all their eyes

Is to breathe in
To be in
The good grace of that God Light
To have it in your hands
The one thing you wanted all your life
'Its all mine'

But theres a hole I cant fill
Theres a curse I cant break
And I gave my soul to it
And it cant be reclaimed
I was younger then
I was younger then
I was young

To know me
Is to hate me
Is to hate what Ive become

Its to watch me
As Im falling
From that ladders last rung

Its to feel it
Like a secret
You cant keep in
Im not the way I was
Im not the way I was

But to feel it
To see it
The look in all their eyes

Is to breathe in
To be in
The good grace of that Godlight
Its to have it in your hands
The one thing you wanted all your life
'Its all mine'

And to feel it
To see it
The look in all your eyes
Is to breathe in
To be in
The good grace of this Godlight
Its to have it
In your hands
The one thing I wanted my life
Its all mine