Wanna Be Myself

I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
我今晚只想嗑*因為我只想做我自己
I forgot how to be myself
我忘瞭如何做回我自己
I just really miss myself
我真的很想念自己
I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself (Yeah)
我今晚只想嗑*因為我只想做我自己（對）
I forgot how to be myself (Uh)
我忘瞭如何做回我自己（嗯）
I just really miss myself (Somebody asked me, yeah)
我真的很想念自己（有人問我，是的）

Somebody asked me, 'What do you have outside of music that really makes you happy?'
有人問我,'除了音樂，你還有什麼真正讓你快樂的？“
I thought about it and I aint have no answer
我想了想，我沒有答案
I started this shit ten years ago, it was just me and my manager
我十年前開始做這件事，只有我和我的經理
On the road, doin any shows, we was fillin up this calendar
在路上，做任何節目，我們都在填寫這個日曆
But Mattys married now and its a whole nothеr chapter
但是現在Matty結婚了，這完全是另一個章節
While Im in Gerryland, Im still hеre wildin as a bachelor
我在Gerryland的時候，我還是個單身漢
Woke up next to a stranger, whats her name? I had to ask her
在一個陌生人旁邊醒來，她叫什麼名字？我不得不問她
She prolly thinks I got it all, but its pain behind this laughter
她總以為我什麼都懂了，但這笑聲背後是痛苦
Hungover the mornin after, close my drapes, make it blackout
宿醉到第二天早上，關上窗簾，讓它失去知覺
Tryna put the pieces together from last night when I blacked out
Tryna把昨晚我失去知覺時的碎片拼在了一起
On LSD, had a convo with my brother, it brought a lot up
在迷幻藥上，我和我的兄弟開了一個車隊，帶來了很多麻煩
See I dont ever take the uniform off, and now Im clocked out
瞧，我從來沒有脫過制服，現在我下班了

I just wanna dothese drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
我今晚只想嗑*因為我只想做我自己
I forgot how to be myself
我忘瞭如何做回我自己
I just really miss myself
我真的很想念我自己
I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
我今晚只想嗑*因為我只想做我自己
I forgot how to be myself, yeah
我忘瞭如何做回我自己（對）
I just really miss myself (Yeah)
我真的很想念自己（對）

Comin down in my room all alone listenin to Mac
獨自一人來到我房間聽Mac講話
Last time he text me, I was ****ed up, forgot didnt hit him back
上次他給我發短信時，我很激動，忘了沒有回擊他
Wish I could have spoken up, man, I just want my brother back
但願我能說出來，老兄，我只是想讓我弟弟回來
But I mean, who am I to talk, bro? Im still livin like that
但是我想說，我能和誰說話呢，兄弟？我還是那樣生活
Theyll never understand what its like to be a artist
他們永遠不會明白當藝術家是什麼滋味
Make some shit I dont feel, yes men tell me its the hardest
做一些我感覺不到的狗*，是的，男人們告訴我這是最難的
They just wanna keep their jobs, stay on my good side, keep their office
他們只想保住自己的工作，站在我這邊，保住自己的辦公室
Keep us on the road, and no commission or the profits
讓我們繼續前進，沒有佣金和利潤
Now everything is peachy, and yeah, I feel Avici
現在一切都很美好，是的，我覺得Avici
Fifty thousand watchin me, but I swear dont nobody see me
五萬人看著我，但我發誓沒人看見我
But its rich people problems, its stamps all in my passport
但這是富人的問題，我的護照全是郵票
My mama tellin me that, 'This is everything you asked for'
我媽媽告訴我，”這就是你要的一切''
What you want?
你想要什麼

I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
我今晚只想嗑*因為我只想做我自己
I forgot how to be myself (How to be myself)
我忘瞭如何做回我自己
I just really miss myself (Great mind, great mind)
我真的很想念我自己（偉大的心靈，偉大的心靈）
I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
我今晚只想嗑*因為我只想做我自己
I forgot how to be myself, yeah
我忘瞭如何做回我自己，是的
I just really miss myself
我真的很想念自己

My anxiety increases the higher that I climb
爬得越高，我的焦慮就越大
I thought this shit would get easier, easier with time
我以為隨著時間的推移，這一切會變得越來越容易
Im happy in my mind, but at least I tell myself that
我心裡很高興，但至少我告訴自己
Guess Im damaged goods, I cannot help that
我想我是被損壞的貨物，我無法控制
Drugs take the edge off, hide inside my comfort zone
*品佔據優勢，藏在我的舒適區
Different girl every night, but worry Ima die alone
每天晚上都有不同的女孩，但擔心我會獨自死去
Me against the world, cant decide now what side Im on
我與世界對抗，現在無法決定我站在哪一方
Miss my family but act like I cant even dial a phone
想念我的家人，但我卻表現得連電話都不會撥
Cheated on my girl, I felt like shit, and then I sped off
背叛了我的女朋友，我覺得自己糟透了，然後就飛奔而去
Crept in the crib quiet, shower, took my wide cell off
悄悄地爬進嬰兒床，淋浴，把我寬大的手機拿開
She woke up, grab my ****, I couldnt help it, had to get off
她醒了，抓住我的****，我忍不住，不得不下車
And if she gave me head, felt like I wanna blow my head off
如果她給了我頭，我覺得我會想把頭炸飛
Think everybody cheats, everybody will
認為每個人都會作弊，每個人都會
Everybody leaves, but these drugs never will
每個人都會離開，但這些藥物永遠不會
I know that sounds ****ed up, but in the end , its real
我知道這些聽起來很荒謬，但最終，這是真的
Til Im lost on a bender askin myself can I chill
'直到我在酒會上迷了路，問我自己我能冷靜下來嗎'
This scale here will measure, five hundred pounds of pressure
這個刻度可以測量500磅的壓力
The only thing to alleviate it is a stash in the dresser
唯一能減輕這種情況的是在梳妝台上藏一點東西
Illuminate my ugly, you really sure you love me?
照亮我的醜陋，你真的確定你愛我嗎？
You deserve to know the truth, decide now what you think of me
你應該知道真相，現在就決定你對我的看法

I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
我今晚只想嗑*因為我只想做我自己
I forgot how to be myself
我忘瞭如何做回我自己
I just really miss myself
我真的很想念我自己
I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
我今晚只想嗑*因為我只想做我自己
I forgot how to be myself, yeah
我忘瞭如何做回我自己，是的
I just really miss myself
我真的很想念我自己