Happy Ending

Hmm, I don't even wanna fucking do this song for real
But I wouldn't be real if
I didn'tI be sitting by myself and
I be thinking, mama what have
I becomeAll
I wanted was a family but
I when I look
I be the only one
Losing everything but money, everybody left
And I don't even get to see my young
Only happiness
I get is in the studio
When I get to do another run
On the road, doing shows, get the woes when it slows
Getting cold, getting owed, but the flows getting sowed
I been doing this a minute, but
I think I want to end it'
Cuz I think
I'm on a higher level when
I goBut the music
I be doing it, be losing it
Imma make it really tough for me to grow
All I wanted was a family portrait
See my baby's on a ranch with horses
But I was fucking devil bitches in corsets
I was never really good, then
I torched it
I'm sorry
Mrs. Jackson
I'm speaking for real
And I never meant to make your daughter cry
But I guess
I'm a failure with women
I'm lost and
I feel like
I oughta die
Feel like it,
I'm rotting away, my life is jus' off in the gray
How much does it cost?
I will pay to lay and be off in a coffin today
I mean off in ashes, this life and after it clashes, if
I get blasted
This is suicide letters all over again,
I thought that
I passed it
But I guess that
I didn't 'cuz this one is written
And there is no mending
But I broke,
Imma a joke when
I croakI jus' hope that
I won't be descending
But this ain't a joke,
I want you to know
That Tech
Nina is never pretending
Alone in my bed with a gun to my head
Asking, where is my happy ending ?
YeahTell me who it is?
What about me?
Where is my happy ending?
What about me?
Is this a life worth living?
You know how it begins
But how does it end for me?
Will I ever live?
Or does He have it in for me?
Will this pop before
I stop breathing?
Is there light in this dark
I'm seeing?
Yeah, I put my life in this music,
Nina is inside out
I set my heart out for people, they know what the inside ' bout
Will they keep feeling
Nina forever this?
I doubtCan never cry for help so if you listening this my shout
I'm searching for the passageway to happiness
But I'm worldly so
I have to lay in nastiness
Yes this a strange year, worldwide fame's near
But the games queer, sometime
I feel like
I'm rudolph the reindeer
But instead of a red nose,
I stay in my red clothes
And the music, they said blows is on the top and the cred grows
Can you resurrect a mothafucka that feel like he possess a dead soul ?
Deteriorates when inferior state, almost equal to bread mold?
Now as my head goes, wish
I could shed those
Because all of the times the
Nina was shorted when
I bled froze
So now that
I'm cold blooded and hella sick
Is what the med shows, the tred slows
And don't even think you reviving a dead rose, yeah
Tell me who it is?
What about me?
Where is my happy ending?
What about me?
Is this a life worth living?
You know how it begins
But how does it end for me?
Will I ever live?
Or does he have it in for me?
Will this pop before
I stop breathing?
Is there light in this dark
I'm seeing?
Listen, I'm on the verge of insanity but
I'm competent
I'm breaking, so
I picked this one to vent
The reason
I look away when you talk to me
My brain is producing evilness,
I'm drowning in 151 and rum
I meantThat's how
I feelI sit in the mirror with this gun and practice how to kill
But I know damn well that the people like me
Really wanna know how to chill
This is life is 'bout it, check 'bout it[Incomprehensible]
Think of all the love
I lostBecause my quest is not a meal
I feel like you, stupid, don't talk to me
I'm cracking up
I don't mean laughter,
I'm full of bitterness and it's backing up
And I live with angels but lately demons been shacking up
Tug of war with my spirits, see the blood
I'm hacking up
I love my kids and my fans, inside
I sob harder'
Cuz you paid the price for my life and it's right like
Bob Barker
And I won't pretend that it's okay,
I'm no facade starter
So I guess my only happy ending is at a massage parlor, yeaa
Tell me who it is?
What about me?
Where is my happy ending?
What about me?
Is this a life worth living?
You know how it begins
But how does it end for me?
Will I ever live?
Or does he have it in for me?
Will this pop before
I stop breathing?
Is there light in this dark
I'm seeing?