Blessings (feat. Annamarie Rosanio)

I hate to say it but it kills me
我不想這麼說，但我快要窒息了
Gives me more reason to lose sleep
給我更多理由讓我失眠
Every mess I' ve made
所有我所做的糟糕的事
If I tell you that l'm hurting
如果我告訴你我受傷了
Would you hold me till it all ends
你會抱著我直到悲痛結束嗎
Help me count my blessings babe
寶貝，為我細數我的祝福
Yeah
Missed calls at my family's funerals
在我家人葬禮上的未接來電
While suits and jackets judge my new songs
用西裝和夾克來評判我的新歌
Say they ain't suitable
說它們並不相配
As if they know the type of music that pops
好像他們很懂流行音樂風格似的
Cause most these label artists need marketing dollars or flop
因為大多數唱片公司的藝人都需要營銷資金，否則就會垮掉
That's the difference between us, I did this all on my own
這就是我們之間的區別，我的一切都出於我之手
Don't need a room full of writers , I put my pain in these songs
不需要這些作家，我把我的痛苦寫在這些歌裡
While they flashing they cheques
當他們炫耀著自己的支票
Rapping about money sex
談論著關於金錢和性
l'm in awe
我望而生畏
No wonder kids are depressed
難怪孩子們會抑鬱
This game affecting us all
這場遊戲影響了我們所有人
It's funny everyone's upset when you speaking the truth
滑稽的是，當你說真話時，每個人都不高興
But I won't stop spilling my guts inside of this booth
但我不會停止傾訴我的心聲
Cause to us this is more than just some lyrics
因為對我們來說，這不僅僅是一些歌詞
This reality , the struggles every single day we live with like
現實就是，我們每天活得很掙扎
I hate to say it but it kills me
我不想這麼說，但我快要窒息了
Gives me more reason to lose sleep
給我更多理由讓我失眠
Every mess I've made
所有我所做的糟糕的事
If I tell you that l'm hurting
如果我告訴你我受傷了
Would you hold me till it all ends
你會抱著我直到悲痛結束嗎
Help me count my blessings babe
寶貝，為我細數我的祝福
Lately l've been drowning in stress
最近我的壓力真的太大了
I spend all of my time inside just playing beats at my desk
我把我所有的時間都花在獨自玩音樂上
Hate saying these next words but l've been feeling depressed
我不想說下面這些話，但我一直鬱鬱寡歡
Have trouble dealing with some issues bottled up in my chest
無法處理一些深埋於內心的問題
I guess pouring myself in musics the only way I cope
我想我只能沉浸在音樂中了
So much more than these clever songs y'all think are dope
比你們認為所謂酷斃了的歌曲有意思多了
I really lived every ****ing line I ever wrote
我真的活在我寫的每一句歌詞裡
And chose to share the stories I could inspire hope
並分享那些能夠激發希望的故事
Now it bothers me, hearing all of this mainstream
現在我很煩，聽到這些主流音樂
Cookie cutter its been the same since my late teens
從我十幾歲起就一直千篇一律
Cause to us this is more than just some lyrics
對我們來說，這真的不僅僅是一些歌詞
This reality, the struggles, every single day we live with ****
現實就是，我們每天活得很掙扎
I hate to say it but it kills me
我不想這麼說，但我快要窒息了
Gives me more reason to lose sleep
給我更多理由讓我失眠
Every mess I've made
所有我所做的糟糕的事
If I tell you that l'm hurting
如果我告訴你我受傷了
Would you hold me till it all ends
你會抱著我直到悲痛結束嗎
Help me count my blessings babe
寶貝，為我細數我的祝福