Like This

Misunderstood, but ain't not always been the same
I was gonna say, back to grey walls and looking through the windowpane
Where's my trust gone or was it ever present?
Did I leave it in the hands of a stranger? Feel disconnected
Will you ride for me?
I take these promises to heart 'cause I've seen way too snakes change face
But play the part well
I pour a little Martell, play Dylan with some cartel
And get a little deeper
And now I'm standing on thе valley of something | can't describе
And this feeling in my brain is getting tight with the more try
So spark up a cigarette
Smoke half of it, chip the rest
Maybe all these chemicals been ****ing with my head
I need this sunshine and these angels more than I ever did
Tryna find my relevance preaching, but what's my message here?
I just wanna see unity, something better
What made you believe you don't live forever? (Oh)

Now I don't want to be like this
Caught up
With nothing left to give, no
And I don't want to feel like this
So stuck
And caught up in the mix now
I don't want to be like this
Caught up
With nothing left to give, no
I don't want to feel like this
So stuck
And caught up in the mix now (Yeah)

Now will these wings take me to Heaven when they carry me up?
If I never put my hands together just to ask to above
I can 't see the God in me today
Who told me to live in vain?
I won't bow down to a Man for all our sins and shame
You might find me in Hell with green Clarks and black hoodies
Not next to goody-goodieswith fortune cookies
Tryna find a meaning everywhere but inside
No wonder we're still following, we've been blind
But, but at least television screens got us believing
Self-hate taught to break us down so we consume it all so easy
We buy and forget pain, but it's momentary
Lost in a maze, tryna explain through the smoke of this sour cherry
But do you feel like yesterday never left ?
Do you wonder when this world will lift the weight off your chest?
Are we looking for the answers in all the wrong places?
Hopeless, see it on my face, yeah (Oh)

Now I don't want to be like this
Caught up
With nothing left to give, no
And I don't want to feel like this
So stuck
And caught up in the mix now
I don't want to be like this
Caught up
With nothing left to give, no
I don't want to feel like this
So stuck
And caught up in the mix now