thinking

Yeah, growing up, yeah
還是在成長著
Know a lot, but I dont know enough
懂得的越來越多卻總覺得不夠用
What you doin here?
你在那邊做什麼？
Why you even showin up? Yeah
為何要在我身邊出現？
Showin up for tryna show me love
甚至要對我展現著你的愛意
Why you look confused like you dont really know whats up? Yeah
但為什麼你看起來如此困惑就像你真的什麼都不知道？
Why you always tryna judge?
為什麼總是喜歡評價他人？
I know who you are, yeah
可我知道你是誰啊
Why you tryna, tryna front? Yeah
為什麼你總是面向前方？
I am not the man I was, look
我曾是你所渴望現在卻已時過境遷
Ayy, made me a promise, I just hope you keep it
給我一個承諾我希望你不會食言
I dont like to get involved with things I dont believe in
不願捲入我所不信任的一切
I dont like to hang with people I dont trust to speak with
與無法信賴和交流的人們我希望敬而遠之
If you tell me that you mean it, then I hope you mean it
若是你說你說話算數我便希望你言出必行
Yeah , feel like I dont deserve you when I hurt your feelings
我想使你不悅的那個我是配不上你的
Im vulnerable, you got the keys to open all my secrets
我很脆弱而你掌握著開啟我秘密的鑰匙
Youve always been there when Im low to help pick up the pieces
每當我彎腰撿拾瑣碎的事物你總會與我相伴
I know I act like I dont need you yet, but lately, Ive been thinking
明知自己是在強裝不必有你相伴但不知為何最近我開始思索
Yeah, lately, Ive been thinking
是的最近我總是在思索
Yeah, yeah, I have been thinking
最近的我思緒不斷
Yeah, I have been thinking
最近我總想個不停
Yeah, I wish that I was optimistic
希望我也能樂觀一點
I wish that I could trust my intuition
希望我的直覺總引著正確的方向
To most, negative thinking makes you a pessimist, but
對很多人來說消極的思考使讓我們成了悲觀主義者
To me, negative thinking means Im just realistic
但於我消極的方式使我越發真實
Thats how I feel, aint that a twisted view?
我感覺如此多扭曲的視覺對不對？
Claim that I dont care what people think, but is that really true?
總是申明我不鳥別人想的是什麼 但事實是否如此？
Those the type of questions that I struggle with
這些使我翻來覆去的問題
Thats the type of thing to keep me up at night
便是我徹夜難眠的原因
Wondering , I wonder if the pressure Ive been under is too much on my shoulders
我好奇是否我真的應該承載如此之多的壓力
Who gon care when this all fades, I turn gray and get older?
當我的光芒泯滅肉體衰老化作灰塵誰又會在意?
Yeah, thats the type of thing that I dont wanna answer
這些問題我也不願回答
But just cause I dont wanna do it dont mean I dont have to
但我不想不代表著我不必回答
See, these are lessons that you learn in life
回收生活給你上的課
And we only get one of em, hope Im learning right
現在其實一節就夠了希望我學到的是對的
I know that everything comes with a price
我明白所有的獲得總要付出代價
Yeah, yeah, everything comes with a price
天下沒有白給的午餐
Yall got no clue what I have sacrificed
你們都不可能看到我做出的犧牲
And lately, Ive been thinking
最近我總想個不停
Yeah, lately, Ive been thinking
最近的我思緒不斷
Yeah, yeah, I have been thinking
最近我總想個不停
Yeah, I have been thinking (I have been thinking)
最近我總是默默思索著