Holding Back The Tears

I kind of keep asking myself little questions
Like where do I go from here
I seem to keep losing track of time
And how long it's been
Since I last had you near
Been a painful road to a door
That's closed
Been a gamble that
I knew I couldn't win
Been a lonely conversation
To this photograph of you
In the mirror
There's a sign I must give in
[03:13.98][04:12.19][04:39.88]So I'm not holding back the tears anymore
[03:19.91][04:18.38] [04:44.44]Tryin' to escape the heartache,
[03:23.23][04:21.69][04:48.07]Tryin' to escape emotion escape emotion
[03:26.92][04:25.63] [04:51.57]No I'm not holding back the tears anymore
[03:33.04][04:31.57][04:57.00]Yesterday's my memory
[03:36.48][04:34.94][ 05:01.07]Reminding me of all the times
[03:39.98][05:04.32]That I depended on you
I used to enjoy spending time
On my own here
Watching the jaded people pass
Now here I am sharing their pain
And their lonely tears
Their lonely tears
And walking a road of broken glass
It's never been easy
It's a constant fight
To get through each day and night
It's a war between the present
And the past present and the past
And the face that's in your mind
Every time you close your eyes
What's the reason, what's the answer,
How long will this last no no
Been a long, long time since
I heard your last goodbye
Still I hear it clearly every day and night
What's the point in love
When you have to give it up
Yet still you need it,
And it's nowhere you can find no no