I hate waking up

When the sun widens its eyes
I no longer know whats going on in here

Ey-ey
Waking up soon, but I wanna sleep
Nothing is worse than leaving these sheets
Barely awake, still brushing my teeth
Running the tap, rinse and repeat
You were the lady and I was the tramp
But showing you off, I felt like the champ
I was your favourite , but fading away
Leaving saliva all over my face
Movies on Fridays no longer a thing
Huh, I-I feel it sting
What didnt I bring? Cause I brought a lot
In case you come back Ill be saving your spot
Try making a difference and showing you life
Stuck at your side, you stuck in a knife
Pouring you wine, you pouring my blood
Wipe out my life , in need of a flood, yeah

I need a flood, I need an end
Scared of the truth, so Ill keep pretending
Dont need a reason, Ive been defeated
Now Im alone, Ill be looking for Jesus

I no longer know whats going on in here

Yeah, ever seen somebody die?
Ever cut your wrists with the bluntest of knives?
Hit your friends, started texting goodbyes?
Aint nothing left, but death in your eyes
Sometimes people leavin, the lessons acceptance
The older you get, harder it is to get it
Some people look for you, some look for an exit
Might hurt you, might hate it, but never regret it
I dont run from pain, it made me
How could I ever hate what it shaped me?
Been to hell, how could that devil faze me?
Wish em well, even when they all hate me
Let me be, take my soul and finally set it free
Spread my ashes on the seven seas
Let me rest in peace, when Im dead, deceased
Swear a graves the only thing thats left for me

I need a flood, I need an end
Scared of the truth, so Ill keep pretending
Dont need a reason, Ive been defeated
Now Im alone, Ill be looking for Jesus

I no longer know whats going on in here

Aint a discography, this an effigy
Im a giant, so when I am dying
You had better make sure that Im buried 7 feet
My reflection deference to the left of me
Cracking under pressure dont let it get to me
You can even break me down chemically
Rapping pain, the only thing that my chemistry
Contains, I think that this meant for me

I think its meant for me, maybe not meant to be
Im sick and tired of fighting with enemies
Trying to cry, she lied about everything
I wanna die, but thats a petty thing
I got a lot more I could be giving
Some people hate me, thats a given
Wonder what I couldve done, to act like the sun
And put some good use to my energy
I think Im done, done, done, done
I wanna run, run, run, run
Tried to get some, some, some , some
And I ****ed up my funds, funds, funds, funds
I got like 2 years to be me
And I got like 3 days in a week
Now I got like 4 things that I need
And I bought like 5 pills, Im asleep
Yeah you know Im tired as shit
I thought Id die asa kid
I brought a knife into school
And they told me 'It is what it is'
Shouldve been locked in a prison
Talk about shitty decisions
I had to roam, no intentions
Told me to work for my pension
Nowadays, Ive been getting paid
Cause the music got me some attention