In My Mind (feat. Brian Viglione)

In my mind
我覺得
In a future five years from now
在未來五年後
Im one hundred and twenty pounds
我將有120磅那麼重
And I never get hung over
並且我從來不會宿醉
Because I will be the picture of discipline
因為我將會是很自律的
Never minding what state Im in
無論我身在美國那個州
And I will be someone I admire
並且我將成為我所敬仰的那種人
And its funny how I imagined
這很有趣，現在就想像——
That I would be that person now
——我將成為那樣的人
But it does not seem to have happened
但是這看起來還沒有發生
Maybe Ive just forgotten how to see
或許我只是忘記瞭如何看待
That I am not exactly the person that I thought Id be
我並不完全是我想我將會成為的那種人
And in my mind
而且我覺得
In the faraway here and now
在遙遠的遠方和未來
Ive become in control somehow
我已變的自律
And I never lose my wallet
我從不會丟錢包
Because I will be the picture of discipline
因為我將很有紀律
Never ******* up anything
從不會搞砸任何事
And Ill be a good defensive driver
而且我會成為一個好的文明駕駛司機
And its funny how I imagined
這很有趣，現在就想像——
That I would be that person now
——我將成為那樣的人
But it does not seem to have happened
但是這看起來還沒有發生
Maybe Ive just forgotten how to see
或許我只是忘記瞭如何看待
That Ill never be the person that I thought Id be
我永遠不會成為我想我將會成為的那種人
And in my mind
而且我覺得
When Im old I am beautiful
當我老了的時候還會很漂亮
Planting tulips and vegetables
我將種植鬱金香和蔬菜
Which I will mindfully watch over
我將用心照看它們
Not like me now
不像我現在這樣
Im so busy with everything
對於任何事情，我現在都太忙了——
That I dont look at anything
——以至於我不去費心查看（周圍的）任何東西
But I'm sure Ill look when I am older
但我確信當我年紀大一些後我就會（有空）去查看了
And its funny how I imagined
這很有趣，現在就想像——
That I could be that person now
——我可以成為那樣的人
But thats not what I want
但這不是我想要的
If thats what I wanted
如果它是我想要的的話
Then Id be giving up somehow
我將會以某種方式放棄
How strange to see
多奇怪啊
That I dont wanna be the person that I want to be
看到我不想成為我想成為的那種人
And in my mind
而且我覺得
I imagine so many things
我想像了這麼多事情——
Things that arent really happening
——那些永遠不會發生的事情
And when they put me in the ground
並且當他們埋葬我的時候
Ill start pounding the lid
我會開始奮力敲打蓋子
Saying I havent finished yet
大喊“我還沒有完成”
I still have a tattoo to get
“我還有一個紋身要刺”
That says Im living in the moment
這說明我那時還活著
And its funny how I imagined
這很有趣，現在就想像——
That I could win this winless fight
——我可以贏得這沒有贏過的戰鬥
But maybe it isnt all that funny
但是或許這並不是那麼有趣——
That Ive been fighting all my life
——我一輩子都在戰鬥
But maybe I have to think its funny
但或許我必須覺得這很有趣——
If I wanna live before I die
——如果我還想活著，而不是立刻去死的話
And maybe its funniest of all
或許這才是最有趣的——
To think Ill die before I actually see
— —去認為我到死也看不到
That I am exactly the person that I want to be
我成為我想成為的那種人的那一天
**** yes
噢，！ （劃掉）是的！
I am exactly the person that I want to be
我到死也看不到我成為我想成為的那種人的那一天