Good News

Your long hair a short walk
你的長發掃過
My biggest fear and a slow watch
我驚恐地註視
The thin air my ribs creak
氣壓太低我喘不上氣
Like wooden dining chairs when you see me
你看到我時我的肋骨像木餐椅一樣嘎吱亂響
Always scared
總是驚恐的結束
That every situation ends the same
每個你與我同在的場景
With the blank stare me in the tap water
我盯著水龍頭嘩嘩流的水發呆
Circling the sink drain
看它打著旋儿流進下水道裡
Because it's heavy
水很重啊
I'm trying really hard
我努力戒藥
To keep my nose clean
讓我的鼻子清爽乾淨
The blue out of my arms
讓我的手臂不再青紫
But it's not easy
但是我做不到啊
It's not easy
太難了我做不到
When what you think of me is important
我太看重你對我的看法了
And I know it shouldn't be so damn important
我知道我不該這麼在意
But it is to me
但是我控制不住我自己
And I'm only ever screaming at myself in public
每次我當眾無端大叫
I know I shouldn't act this way in public
我知道我不該公然無理取鬧
I know I shouldn't make my friends all worry
我不該讓朋友擔心我
When I go out at night and grind my teeth like sutures
當我走進黑夜牙齒磨個不停
My mouth like a wound
像是要縫上傷口一樣縫上嘴
When I stay up and throw my voice about you
當我睡不著念叨著你時
Or less about you and more about how I ruined
或是念叨著自己是如何毀滅時
Everything I think could be good news
我想到的全是好消息